“I CREATED a façade, an illusion of someone that wasn’t me. I knew who I was but I could never portray that. Inside I was dying a slow death,” those are the words of Vanessa Lacey, a transgender woman from Waterford City who was born as male, but always knew she was a female.
Born on Stephen Street in 1964 Vanessa spent the majority of her life trying to live as the man she appeared to be, while attempting to block out thoughts that she really was a woman. It wasn’t until 2007 when she was diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder and became suicidal that she realised she could no longer live a man and as a lie.
Vanessa explains, “I came to a wall and couldn’t go on with life anymore. I was after being diagnosed Gender Identity Disorder. I remember the psychologist’s words he said it is not your fault how you feel. I was elated coming out of the surgery, but then I came back to the harsh reality about what I was going to do.”
Vanessa said since a very young age she always knew that she was a girl, but this left her feeling confused, guilty and if something was wrong with her.
Vanessa told her full story to this week’s Waterford News & Star.